Confessions

January 29, 2009 at 12:03 pm (Baby, Opinion, Parenting) (, )

Here goes:

I let Alexis watch TV even though the American Academy of Pediatrics says no TV until age 2.   Sometimes it just helps me get things done,  I can fold laundry or wash dishes.  I don’t let her eatch tv all day long and I don’t let her watch inappropriate shows, but she likes Yo Gabba Gabba, Backyardigans, and the Sprout channel and she also likes Wheel of Fortune and Jeopardy!.

I bring Alexis into bed with me when I’m too exhausted to help her fall back asleep.  This is not something that I do frequently, but if she wakes in the middle of the night and will not fall back asleep usually due to teething pain, I do not have the heart to let her cry so I bring her into bed until she falls back asleep.  Or if she wakes too early in the morning, she comes into bed.  She usually wakes up between 8 – 8:30 sometimes earlier.  I will get up if it’s at least 7:30, but any earlier I just can’t do it, so she comes into bed.

I give her food she shouldn’t be eating yet.  Chocolate, mainly.  Yes, most of the time she eats healthy but if I’m having something yummy i give her a taste.

I have 2 blankets in her crib and they have been there since she has been in there.  Actually, I covered her with a blanket in her bassinet b/c she hated being swaddled.  Even when I did swaddle her with her arms out, I still added an additional blanket.  Our house is cold and I didn’t want her to be cold.  When I put her in the crib, I would tuck the blanket into the mattress at the bottom of the crib.  By that point she was able to pick herself up and she would cry if anything happened to her.  I would check on her at first to make sure she was ok and she was so I felt comfortable leaving it there.  Now the blankets are a bit heavier since it’s cooler outside.

I also have bumpers in her crib.  They are not only cute, but they keep her from bumping her head.  See above for picking her head up, rolling over, and crying if there was an issue.

I know a lot of these things are no-nos but I’m the mom and I would not do anything that I felt would be dangerous to Alexis.  So there it’s out I’ve confessed!!!!

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Alexis is 11 months old today!!!!

January 21, 2009 at 5:17 pm (Baby, Family, Parenting) (, , )

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One more month and the first year is over – it’s incredible!!  She has gotten so big it’s hard to believe.  She is extremely active these days.  She crawls all over the place, she stands without support and she cruises a lot.  She’ll be walking soon I’m sure.  She is talking more also – she says bye-bye, leche, and sometime she says upa (spanish for “up”).  She definitely has a strong personality and knows what she wants.  She likes being on the floor most of the time playing with her toys.  She can also eat with a spoon now.  Not well, but she can do it.  When I put food on the spoon, she knows how to put it into ther mouth to eat.  She is a very good eater and I still haven’t found anything she won’t eat.  She has 8 teeth – 4 top and 4 bottom and her molars are starting to come in but haven’t yet broken through.  She’s a lot of fun and likes to giggle and laugh.  She is very vocal.  She is also very squirmy and makes changing her extremely difficult!  The minute I lay her down she flips over and tried to get away so it’s always a fight changing her.  Luckily I stopped using a changing table a long time ago and I just use the floor.  I haven’t weighed her really, but I put her on our scale and it said 21 pounds which sounds right.    That’s about it.  I’m planning her 1st birthday party now and I just can’t believe how fast this first year has gone by!!!

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There’s a fine line between cautious and over-protective

January 3, 2009 at 11:05 am (Baby, Family, Parenting) (, )

Now that Alexis is mobile and active and daring, I find myself constantly second-guessing my actions.  She has had numerous bumps and falls and accidents already.  I know this is just the beginning!! As a mom, I have a natural instinct to want to protect my child from getting hurt.  When I see her standing and about to fall, I want to steady her and grab her.  But I also know that it’s good for her to fall, it’ll teach her her limitations and she will learn how to fall.  She needs to try things on her own in order to grow and develop.  It’s so tough for me to know when to step in and when not to.  A perfect example, last night she was crawling in her room and tried to stand up on a step stool that is just her size.  It’s not extremely sturdy and I knew that it could tip over if she didn’t put her weight in the middle.  But it’s only about a foot off the ground so I also knew that she wouldn’t fall far if she did and the room is carpeted.  So I let her do it and she fell, of course she bumped her lip and it started bleeding a little.  I felt terrible!!!!!  I shouldn’t have let her do it.  But the tears and the bleeding soon stopped and she was no worse for the wear, so I guess it was ok.

That brings me to my dilemma, when is it cautious and when is it over-protective.  It is with held breath that I watch her let go and stand on her own and even when she wobbles and I want to step in and grab her, I hold back and usually I learn that she can re-gain her balance.  Not always though and sometimes she falls, most of the time on her butt, occasionally not and she will get scared/hurt, but nothing serious.  I can see into the future and having the same issue with allowing her to go out with friends somewhere without me.  I guess the worrying never stops.  My job as a parent from now on is to teach her good judgment and to instill in her the belief that mommy will always be there when she stumbles (literally or figuratively)  and sit back and hope that she can take on all of life’s challenges with me behind her ready to catch her if she falls.

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Adieu 2008!

December 31, 2008 at 12:04 pm (Baby, Family, Holidays, House, Parenting, Politics) (, )

I have to bid a fond goodbye to 2008.  It was a big year for me.  I went from “Leanna” to “Mommy” (actually Mama).  I have always had this quirk.  Please don’t laugh at me.  I prefer even numbered years.  No reason.  I just do.  So it is with a small amount of trepidation that I look forward to 2009.  There are a few things that I am looking forward to in 2009.  First and extremely importantly, saying Adios to Pres Bush and hello to President Obama.  I hope that the transition is smooth and that things can turn around in this country.  Second I am looking forward to hopefully being able to sell our house and move to a larger one with a yard for Alexis.  I am also looking forward to the possibility of baby #2 (and final baby).  Well, at least being pregnant not actually having baby #2 in 2009.

As for New Year’s Resolutions, I don’t do them.  I resolved several years ago to stop making resolutions.  I think they just set me up for failure.   So, I will just be positive and start fresh with all the promise and anticipation that January 1st brings.

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No more baby food

December 1, 2008 at 10:57 am (Baby, Cooking, Eating Out, Parenting) (, )

That’s what Alexis has decided.  For the past couple months I’ve been giving her little bits and pieces of table food.  Well, she has become so good at chewing and enjoying things that re not pureed that she won’t eat the baby foods anymore.  Even the Stage 3s which are chunky.  She closes her mouth, preferring to feed herself.   Ok, little miss independent (can’t imagine where she gets that).    I’m glad that she is such a good eater and it’s a lot more fun for me.  It’s also a lot messier.  So far her favorite seems to be rice and anything sweet.  Cinnamon toast, pumpkin pie, fruit, etc!

Ironically, she will eat yogurt.  Even though it’s baby food-like she seems to know that it’s not baby food.

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Alexis is 9 months old!

November 25, 2008 at 10:58 am (Baby, Cooking, Family, Parenting) (, , )

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These months pictures are getting more and more difficult to do! She doesn’t just sit there calmly anymore with the paper behind her.  She now wants to grab the paper and crumple it up and eat it.  So this is the best I could do but you get the idea.

Anyway, yes, she is 9 months old now!!!! I can’t believe how fast it’s gone by.  It’s all so much more fun now.  First the basic stats.  She weighed 19lbs 14oz and was 28.5 inches so in the 75% for both height and weight.  She actually lost a couple pounds from her stomach bug b/c she had been at 21 pounds 10 days before when we weighed her at the ER b/c of her eye accident.  She is developmentally where she should be.  No crawling and no interest.  She gets on all 4s and she moves but not exactly crawling.  She is much more interested in standing so that’s where she spends most of her time.  She wants to pull herself up all the time on anything and anyone she can grab.  She tests herself when she’s standing.  She can easily hold on with one hand now but she’s trying to let go with the other.  Most of the time she ends up on her butt, but she has stood along for (very) brief periods of time.   She cruises when she’s holding onto the couch.  Not always successfully but she’s learning.  She can also get into a sitting position from her stomach.  She’s saying mama and dada and no no no which I think is actually no b/c she says it when she’s pissed.  She is also eating a lot more table foods.  She loves cinnamon toast it’s her favorite.  She also eats deli meats, fruit, potato, banana, yogurt and other things, I try to give her little bits of whatever we’re having so that she can get used to eating more texture and flavor.  She is a great eater though and loves to eat! She is also becoming very independent.  She doesn’t like to be held as much anymore, preferring to be on the floor exploring.   She plays a lot more.  We play peek a boo and she loves singing.  She will mimic me if I sing La La La she’ll do it back.  No clapping or waving, but I’m working on it!!

That’s pretty much it.  I’m looking forward to Thanksgiving and of course Christmas!

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Milestones

October 21, 2008 at 10:35 am (Baby, Family, Friends, Parenting) (, )

Since I haven’t blogged in a while I have not mentioned 2 very important events!  2 of my good friends babies turned ONE!!!!! It’s amazing because we were pregnant at the same time, of course they were further along that me.  I clearly remember their pregnancies and births and of course the days leading up to and following the births of their babies.  And I remember when they were both teeny babies and now they’re ONE!!!!!!

So, Happy Birthday Sophia and Mikey!!!

Another milestone.  Today Alexis is 8 months old.  I know it’s not a “big one” like 6 months was or 9 months or a year will be.  But it seems huge to me.  I don’t know why 8 months old sounds like a lot, but it does.  It really makes me realize that she is getting bigger and that time is just flying by!!!  At 8 months she is now rolling around the floor like a sausage.  I have to put pillows bewtween my bed and the floor or she will roll right under it.  She is scooting forward.  She also rocks on all fours.  So if she could combine the scooting and the rocking then she would be crawling, I am just waiting for it to happen any day.  She can also stand while holding on to something for a few seconds.  She is starting to eat table foods, I give her bits and pieces of my food to expose her to new flavors and textures.  She responds to her name and is beginning to remind me of me in her very willful and stubborn personality!!  I see some definite temper tantrums in her toddler-hood and lots of arguments in her teen years.  She is very independent.  She doesn’t want to be held very much anymore, she stretches her legs out and demands to be on the floor so she can be free to explore.  I love seeing all these facets of her personality surface!

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How can I have another baby?

October 9, 2008 at 9:09 pm (Baby, Family, Parenting) (, , )

Ok, no I am not pregnant b/c I’m sure that’s what people will think when they see the title.

Ok, now that we have that squared away.  I don’t mean physically have another baby.  My pregnancy was relatively smooth and my delivery was quick and easy(ish).  What I mean is how can I have another baby when I already have a baby?  I know I know…huh?  Before I had a baby I always thought that I wanted “kids”.  Kids were an abstract term,  I didn’t really have a frame of reference.  There was no attachment.  Now that I have a kid, I can put a name and a face and emotions with that term.  At least when it comes to one baby.  Now, when I think of having another baby, it’s in the same abstract way that I once thought of any babies?  Following along?  So, there is no attachment or connection to my as-yet-conceived second child.  Although there is to my first born.  So, I almost feel resentment or guilt at taking away from her.  I feel that I would be dividing my attention, and it doesn’t feel fair to me.  She is so important to me and I want to do everything I can for her, so bringing a younger sibling into her life, when she never asked for it just seems like I’m cheating her.  I know of course (again abstractly) that I would love this second child as much as I love Alexis and I also know that she would love her little brother or sister.  But for right now, I just can’t imagine it.  Maybe part of that comes from the fact that I’m an only child and I really enjoyed being an only child!

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Sick Baby = Tired Mommy

August 28, 2008 at 11:15 am (Baby, Colds, Family, Sleep) (, , , )

I realize I haven’t posted in a long time, but I haven’t been up to it.  A recap of the last several days in our lives.

Friday – I finally felt a tooth coming through the bottom gums after Alexis had clearly been teething for a few days.  I also noticed that she had a stuffy nose which I attributed to the tooth.  She slept a bit restlessly but again – tooth.

Saturday – She was more stuffy and congested and sneezing so I was still thinking tooth but I also began to think maybe it was a cold.  She wasn’t napping well all day and I had a very hard time getting her to sleep.  She was so congested that she kept waking herself up.  I used saline drops and the nasal aspirator several times and she finally fell asleep but only for a few hours then woke up and I did it again.  She didn’t sleep very long so I went and got her and brought her into bed and she fell asleep but was restless and I don’t sleep well b/c I’m so conscious of her being there.

Sunday – we drop Marc off at the airport for his trip to Dallas and head to my mom’s house.  I was hoping Alexis would nap in the car b/c she hadn’t slept well but no such luck.  At this point it’s clear that she has a cold.  I had managed to avoid her getting a cold for 6 months but it finally happened.  So she was in good spirits and smiling and laughing and acting happy but sneezing and sniffling and not really being able to breathe.  She went on some errands with my mom and I and we all went to lunch to celebrate my grandparents 58th wedding anniversary.   She napped for a little in the afternoon but I could tell she just wasn’t herself.  Then nighttime came.  I had a feeling it would be a bad night b/c the night before was pretty bad and she had gotten worse so I was prepared.  She drank her bottle and then fell asleep while I was holding her.  I went and put her in her crib as usual and left.  A few minutes later she starts crying.  I go in and clear out her nose and she falls asleep.  Not for long.  15 minutes later she’s awake again.  I can hear that she is so stuffed up she just can’t breathe through her nose at all and she just doesn’t know what to do.  I pick her up and bring her downstairs.  She is miserable.  She keeps closing her eyes and putting her head on my shoulder but then she starts crying b/c she can’t breathe.  It was awful.  By this point she has also developed a cough.  My parents are both downstairs with me and we’re taking turns trying to soothe her and walk around with her but nothing is helping and she is just getting more hysterical b/c she wants to sleep so badly.  I decided to call the Dr after hours line to see if there is anything at all I can give her to help.  They call me back and they said to get a humidifier but that’s all that we can do.  So it’s after 11 by now my mom and I put her in the car and go to the 24 hour walgreens.  After a few minutes of driving she falls asleep – I think the heat and humidity of being outside helped clear her out enough to fall asleep.  I get the humidifier and some soft kleenex and we head back home.  I take the car seat out of the car and set up the humidifier in the room and we put the entire car seat in the crib.  She sleeps like that until about 3am.  I did not sleep b/c I hear every sniffle and cough and I keep checking on her.  So she starts crying and then she ends up in bed with my mom and I taking turns holding her.  Obviously no one got very much sleep.

Monday – I had her 6mo well visit appt that day which I was happy about.  My grandmother comes with me.  Good news.  She’s doing very well.  She’s exactly where she should be developmentally Dr says she’s strong and will probably start crawling soon.  18lbs (75%) and 26in (50%).  Bad news in addition to the cold she has an ear infection.  Lovely.  So we get antibiotics.  We head home and she naps on and off.  Dr says we can use a little bit of Vicks on her chest at night and to buy  Vapor Bath from Johnson’s that will help clear her out a bit.  I do all of those things but she is still miserable and I think she had gotten worse.  Same thing at night she was so so tired but could not fall asleep.  We put the Vicks on her chest and it cleared her up enough to fall asleep.  We decided to keep her elevated and I put her in the swing and I slept on the couch.  I again was barely able to sleep b/c of her sniffling and coughing and moving and making noises.  I dozed on and off until 3 when she started crying and wanted out of the swing.  I picked her and she fell asleep on me and we “slept” like that until 6:30 when my mom came and got her and let me sleep for an hour in bed.

Tuesday – More of the same except now the cough is getting worse and she has a low grade fever and her tummy is bothering her a little from the antibiotics.  Napping is sporadic and she’s not drinking all her milk b/c it’s hard to swallow when you can’t breathe through your nose.  Towards the end of the day I start hearing a wheezing when she breathes.  At first I think it’s from the congestion but the more I hear it the more it’s definitely a wheeze.  Growing up with a father with asthma I’m familiar with that sound and just hoping its not what I think it is.   My dad gets home from work and listens and he hears it too same with my mom.  My aunt comes by to visit and she hears the wheezing as well.  She’s not short of breath so I’m not thinking of going to the hospital but I call the after hours # for her Dr.  They said as long as she’s not short of breath to take her to the Dr the next morning, otherwise she needs to go to the ER.  And to keep her upright.  Ok, so sleeping was more of the same.  She finally fell asleep and my mom says she will take the first shift since she’s not working the next day.  Neither of us wants to put her down b/c we were so nervous about her breathing.  My mom sleeps with her on the couch while I go up to bed.  I was able to sleep for 4 hours then it was my turn and I held Alexis the rest of the night.

Wednesday – I still hear her wheezing so I call the Dr and they said to bring her in.  My mom and I go to the Dr and she hears the wheeze also.  She says asthma is genetic and in addition to my dad having it, my mom did when she was little.  Great.  So the Dr says some babies wheeze like that one time and never again but this could be asthma and we need to watch her.  They give her a nebulizer treatment in the office and send us home with a prescription and to do it 3 times a day.  Alexis is able to take almost a 2 hour nap thankfully b/c she needed it.  The rest of the day is about the same – congestion, coughing, sniffling, whimpering, wheezing.  She is still smiling and in a generally good mood most of the time though which is good but I just feel so bad for her.  So she is still wheezing at night and had some of the same issues getting to sleep.  Once she does, I put her in her swing and lie down on the couch.  She was restless so I knew she wouldn’t last.  She woke up after a couple hours around midnight.  I held her until she was asleep again and then I decided to try and put her in her new bouncy that I just bought (newborn to toddler rocker b/c she outgrew the other one) I recline it back to the newborn position and she seems comfy.  I put it right next to the couch.  She was able to sleep there fairly well.  She woke up a few times and I was able to soothe her back to sleep.  My mom switched with me at 4am and i went up to bed until 7am when she needed to get ready for work.

Thursday – no news to report yet.  She’s napping. 2 hours and counting.  She is obviously tired I am just keeping my fingers crossed that she improves.  She was coughing a lot when she woke up and still very stuffy.  Marc comes home tonight and we go home.  In case you’re counting I have now not slept for 5 nights in a row.  I am exhausted.  My eyes are bloodshot.  This is why I haven’t had the energy for the internet in days.

I will update again on her progress but having a sick baby sucks.

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Happy 1/2 Birthday Alexis!

August 21, 2008 at 1:06 pm (Baby, Family) ()

Alexis is 6 months old today! It’s crazy! I can’t believe half a year has gone by so quickly since she was born.  She is such a little person now and not just a blob.  She does things and changes every day.  She knows me.

So, what is she doing now?  She rolls over from her back to her belly constantly, but still does not roll the other way.  She is trying to get up on all 4s, so I assume crawling is not too far away.  She is really good at sitting up and can play with her toys while she sits.  She reaches out to me to pick her up.  She sat up in the shopping cart at Publix which was huge for me b/c now I can do groceries with her and not have the car seat in the cart!  She babbles all the time.  She reaches for toys – and everything else.

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